start a new.

As a child growing up in a Catholic environment, I had wonderful Catechism teachers who thought me lessons I continue to hold close to my heart. Unfortunately, I hardly remember the names of these great teachers but more importantly, I remember the lessons they taught. One of the biggest lessons was "to give thanks in all circumstances". Now, holding these lessons close to your heart is one thing, but putting them into practice is a wholly different matter and one that I continue to struggle with (a lot) especially now that I'm no longer schooling in a Catholic environment and I don't have things like big tests and big benchmarks and major problems to remind me of humility, thanksgiving and how much I need God to be the centre of my life.

I use to be able to give thanks with such solemnity and seriousness; with heart. But lately, my mind has been in thirty places at any one second that its become quite hard to focus on one simple thing at a time when there are so many other things (big and small) that require my attention. All this frenzy is getting to me and I know it isn't a good thing. I need to lift up my worries and insecurities and what ifs to God and then focus on getting each task on my extremely lengthy list completed; task by task. And I'm praying that as I carry out each of these task, I show no anger and no frustration, keep my temper in check, carrying out each task with heart and giving thanks along the way for strength and determination.